happy x'mas!!!
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: (I just) Died in your arms tonight
Hmm... since june, i havent written here. So, it's like half a year. In fact, I didnt even visit my own blog. So many things happened during these days. But i keep forgetting them. I'm starting to think that i should keep track of these if i still want to remember them in future. Somehow, it's a good thing that i can forget things easily, but sometimes, I really want to remember these sweet memories. NOt all are worth forgotten.

Last nite, I listened to an old song and i became to like that. Actually, it was a mtv of Samurai X (Kenshin). Probably cuz i like that anime, i became to like the song too. (I just)Died in your arms tonight by Cutting crews. But too bad, i dont have the song, only mtv. Here's the lyrics:

Oh i, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight

I keep looking for something
I can't get broken hearts lie all around me
And I don't see an easy way to get out of this
Her diary it sits on the bedside table
The curtains are closed
The cats in the cradle who would've thought
That a boy like me could come to this

Oh i, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh i, I just died in your arms tonight

It must've been some kind of kiss I should've walked away
Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list I try to be discreet
But then blow it again
I've lost and found
It's my final mistake she's loving by proxy
No give and all take 'cos I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times.

Oh i, I just died in your arms...
It was a long hot night she made it easy
She made it feel right
But now it's over the moment has gone
I followed my hands not my head
I know I was wrong
Oh i, I just died in your arms...

A new step of my life
Mood:  blue
It's been so long since i wrote here last time. There were quite few changes in my life, for an instance, i finished my school... I dont know what future may bring, but i'm trying my best and hope for the best..

Currently, i'm sick, a cold. I think i'm prone to cold. Once i read it in a prediction, but i didn't believe it that much. But it occurs to me often..I just cant stand the strong weather..

That's all for now i think. I thought of stopping here, but in a 2nd thought, i might as well keep it going ;)

Wonderful days
I'm waiting for my friends to do project and remember i haven't visited here for a long time. I've been quite busy with the school stuff and have no time for other things. For the moment, everything's going well and life is pretty cool. I think the proj i just submitted would get high marks and I might do well in that one. So i'm a bit relieved now. but still, there's 2 more yet. And exams. :D
Anyway, things aren't that bad afterall..Oh well..time to study now..

currently listening ---> my immortal by Evanescence
~~~These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase~~~

I love that song so much. yesterday, i was listening only to that song the whole day :D

I wish I could...
I wish i could say things on my mind. But i just know it would never happen. Will i have to keep them all of my life or will i be able to forget them all completely? Everthing's same as usual and I'm doing fine actually. But deep down inside, there's sth wrong. It's not gonna be the same again. I'll live my life the way as i always wanted and i'll try my best to get the things i wanted, except that one thing.

Currently listening: ~miss ya finally~

But I miss you finally
But I miss you finally
Try to remember all these years
We shared the love we shared the tears
Thought that forever it would be
I realize you lie to me
I still hold on
Still dream of days when we were one
[CHORUS]
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
All of these promises you made
This 4 letter word it seems to...
Baby it's hard to understand
Now that you're gone
We reached the end
I still believe
Still dream of days when we were one
[Chorus 3X]
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
Right from the start
My love made me blind

.........
I just realised i haven't posted here for a long time already. I've been busy with school stuff and couldn't give time for blogging. Today i found some lyrics of the songs i love. The original songs are in korean and since i'm not korean, i had to find the english version.

this is a song called, from beginning till now, OST-winter sonata. I love original song, and the lyrics as well as english version.

:Can't return to my side, it's impossible now
: I console myself that I should stop loving you now
: If I can't meet you again,
: I really hope to forget you, to forget the entire you in my heart
: Every time I want to smile, you let me cry
: You make my everything go wrong
: Every time I think of you, all my defences gave way
: Tried hard to forget you, but I just can't
: If I can't meet you again,
: I really hope to forget you, to forget the entire you in my heart
: Every time I want to smile, you let me cry
: You make my everything go wrong
: Every time I think of you, all my defences give way
: I tried hard to forget you, but I just can't forget
: I never know it is so hard to love someone
: Every time I want to smile, you let me cry
: You make my everything go wrong
: Every time I think of you, all my defences gave way
: Tried hard to forget you, but I just can't

Complicated..
Sometimes, u think something is bad enough. But later, u becomes to realise it's just nth and meet with worse things. is life always like that?

I blame myself for being too naive in the past. I shouldn't have been that sensitive.

I dont wanna regret for the things i've chosen. But...will i be lucky enough....I'm so blurred....

~fear not for future, weep not for the past~

Only if i could do as it says..

sleepless night
It's gonna be a sleepless night i think. There're so many things on my mind at the moment. I'm quite confused with most of them. Sometimes, we want to do sth but we can't, just cuz it's not so rt to do so. But what if we do regardless what others think, then again, we can't ignore others' opinion about us. Geez...what i'm talking :D...i can't even understand what i'm trying to say or what i want.

Perhaps people might think i'm pessimistic, cuz i never think positively for most things. But what if i can't get sth i want after i think i could achieve? The blow would be worse, rt? But again, that doesnt mean I dont think i can succeed for most things. Better stop and hit the sack :D......that would be the best thing for now to do :P

Busy week
I just remembered the last entry i made here was on Sunday. Time really flies fast during these few days. Now I wanna study and want a not-so-bad grade. But too many things to cope with. Just want a few more hours for each day.....

I dont think i can write here often for the time being...

Depress!!!!!!
Hmm...I haven't posted anything here for a few days. I just didn't remember to write or have no time to come here. This week's gonna be pretty tiring since i'm having tests on thursday and tomorrow. I have no idea why I was so lazy and didn't study enough to get a higher mark. I may have too many excuses for it, but now i think I should forget all other things and focus on my study first. But ...well, pretty too late...I hope i wont be too emotional in future. That wouldn't be any advantage for me in anyway. Sometimes i really want to be like some ppl who are so cold-blooded(correct usage? no time for grammar anyway :P).

Time really flies fast and a month doesn't mean too long to me. well...I shouldn't think except study for the moment. but i have no idea why too many events happen on 15th for me. Well...well...well....enough for my stupid thoughts.

i'm listening to some songs and the meanings are quite cool..but they aren't in english.

Monday Blues......
This's gonna be a long tiring day. I haven't studied most of the things for tomorrow exam. And to make my monday worse, it's terribly raining outside. :(

I'm listening to a song from korean drama, IL MARE. That movie was a cool one released in 2002, i think. The orginal song is in korean, but i put the english translation here. I dont know if it's totally correct or not since i dont know any korean :P

* Release me, I know the only way
to reach me, that is the way, that it, should be
so free me, from all your memories
I know, we must say goodbye
We must say goodbye

If you belong, in this world
Then I know we'll take the step to every road
Now alone, I realize you're far ahead
Without knowing you we're there, still in my heart
I know, we must say goodbye
We must say goodbye
[ * ]

Can't we belong, in this world
Then I'm sure you'd take me to your every road
Just one thin ,not realizing you were there
Without knowing you were there still in your heart
I know you must say goodbye
We must say goodbye

I know we must say goodbye
Must we say goodbye...